Reading Amina Cain's A Horse at Night
"I have been trying this year to write from a place of authenticity rather than from a fear of obsolescence" My favorite bit, and good job on being brave. Authenticity resonates & gives me permission to be authentic in return. Fear resonates too, but I've found when I operate from their it keeps me & the writing small. You are not small & not either your words.
(Alas I fear I am a duck, but as I loathe birds that does not please me. Or maybe it says I'm just struggling with loving myself.)